Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Time Flies!

I never thought I would be the kind of person that hated getting older. I didn’t have issues about turning thirty or even forty, but lately the aging thing has completely wierded me out!

I’ve been thinking about it. There is my job, a mostly stressful job. A job that I spend too much time driving to and from. A job that is not what I had dreamed I would be doing to earn a living. A job that I like, not love. A job that is necessary, stable, and provides for my family, yet I tend to have a lot of resentment towards the job that takes away so much of my time. Time I could be using to draw and write.

Now that time is so precious, I’m realizing that each day that passes is another day that I have not published a book! The sad thing is that if I could turn back time, be twenty again, I wouldn’t take advantage of my time. Back then, I thought I had all the time in the world. That old saying comes to mind, “If I only knew then what I know now.” If only…

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Discouraged and Reborn

I told myself I wouldn't get discouraged but apparently, I don't know myself as well as I thought I did. I got three agent rejections for my book, The Star Relic. They were polite, even encouraging but all I read was, NO! You suck and so does your book!

I worked so hard on the query letter. Still, it didn't win any of them over. Now, I can't  seem to sit down and write anymore. I have so much in my head, ready to be put on paper and that little voice, the whiny one, keeps saying, "Why waste you're time mate. No one will like it anyway." Did I mention that my little voice has an English accent?

I finally started writing again. I have about for stories going right now that are not complete, and two that are. I think they are all great stories. I'd read them and I read a lot! The Star Relic is an amazing story about shape shifters. Who doesn't like shape shifters? I specifically queried agents who wanted fantasy. I've gotten amazing reviews and feedback on this book from beta-readers, so now what? 

Well, I am not going to keep these rejections in my head or heart anymore!!! (I just pounded on the desk with a closed fist, which means I am serious and determined.) There are thousands of agents and publishers. I will keep sending queries and in the meantime I will self publish ebooks, join a few writing contest, and basically move on. 

I'm a writer, no one will ever take that away from me.